What Now? with Lindsay Johnstone
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Episode Fifteen: Dad
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Episode Fifteen: Dad

What might analysis unearth to threaten a relationship that is, now, stable?

It’s early March 2020.

Lindsay tells her husband she’s going to be in more intensive therapy. She reflects upon the present-day relationship with her father and how she feels guilt that it’s her mother who now bears the brunt of her scorn.

Lindsay and Steven go to see Scottish musician King Creosote perform at Glasgow’s Royal Concert Hall as the threat of COVID looms. She is thrust back half a decade as her emotions overwhelm her, remembering the first time she experienced this album and its accompanying film, From Scotland with Love by Virginia Heath, when things were very different for them all.

In the letters, Helen tells Tom about the anger she experiences. He assures her that it won’t factor in their married life.

Helen, MaryEllen, Alex and baby Lindsay, May 1983: Merlewood, Newmilns
Alex, Lindsay, Helen, MaryEllen and Kev 1987, Riverbank Street, Newmilns

Some more very recent finds… My paternal grandfather’s slides, featuring a very young Dad, Ray and some images of teenaged Dad that until December 2023, I’d never seen before.

And that King Creosote gig on Glasgow Green, July 2014

Watch the Trailer for From Scotland with Love here and seek out the whole film if you can. I quote one of the songs at the start of the print version of my memoir.

From Something to Believe In, from From Scotland With Love by King Creosote:

Dreaming without sleeping

It’s morning, are you leaving?

But our story, it has only just begun

And are you willing it to end?

You promised me a feeling

Something to believe in

You promised me a feeling

Now I promise to be real

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What Now? with Lindsay Johnstone
What Now? with Lindsay Johnstone – Audio and Video including every episode of Held in Mind: A Memoir
Here you'll find every episode of my memoir, Held in Mind. You'll also find video interviews with fellow creative caregivers, which forms The Cost of Caring Series, and occasional video and audio on the big (and small) stuff of midlife.
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