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Held in Mind: A Memoir by Lindsay Johnstone
Episode Thirty Five: Come Home to Yourself
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Episode Thirty Five: Come Home to Yourself

When your body doesn't feel like a place of safety, where can you go?

Hi friends,

If you’re new here, welcome! I’m Lindsay.

On Wednesdays, I release a brand new episode of my audio memoir which asks the question: In the absence of a ‘well’ mother, can it ever be possible to become a ‘good enough’ one yourself?

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This week’s episode…

30th November 2020

In a therapy session, Lindsay recounts an incident with her elder daughter and the family's pet bunnies. It prompted her to reflect that at 37 she hasn't seen a dead body. Hasn't seen anyone or anything in the process of dying. With her own threat response so heightened, would she recognise it if it was happening in front of her? Can she trust what she's seeing? What she's feeling? Is she able to comfort her daughter in her distress when they are both so triggered?

3rd May 1946

Helen writes to Tom reporting that she's struggling to control her emotions at work. She knows it's inappropriate to be so visibly upset, but can’t help it. When will his demob come so that he can save her from herself?

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