What Now? with Lindsay Johnstone
Held in Mind: A Memoir by Lindsay Johnstone
Episode Eighteen: Omissions
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Episode Eighteen: Omissions

Can Helen's diary from 1992 be trusted? Can Lindsay's version of the first COVID lockdown be, either?

What if we can’t be truthful with ourselves, let alone anyone else?

New here? Hi! Each Wednesday, I share a new episode of my memoir, Held in Mind, for my Membership gang. It’s on submission in the UK right now, and that’s why it’s behind the paywall. Head back to the beginning here:

Held in Mind: a Memoir

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November 26, 2023
Held in Mind: a Memoir

“This is stunning. Memoir is such a fascinating genre isn’t it? And you write it brilliantly.” Clover Stroud – author of four memoirs including the forthcoming The Giant on the Skyline on Held in Mind Held in Mind: A Memoir In the absence of a ‘well’ mother, can it ever be possible to become a ‘good enough’ one yourself? Does mothering your own mother risk…

Late spring 2020

Lindsay’s therapy has long-stopped, and a minor domestic situation sees her spiral. It serves to show how months living in enforced confinement with her family as the threat of COVID looms have taken their toll.

She dare not say out loud (or even to herself) that she isn’t coping.

Late spring 1992

Alex and MaryEllen decide to separate. He stays in Riverbank Street and she moves with the children back to her parents’ house at Auchengate. It means a change of school for the children and, because there’s no space in the house, the three of them are forced to sleep together in MaryEllen’s teenage bed and bedroom.

Auchengate, June 1992

Helen’s diaries say nothing of this unwelcome change in their domestic circumstances. Nor anything of the troubling symptoms that signal her health is failing.

The truth is in everything she omits.


A reminder…

Our Members’ Seasonal Journaling Session for early spring takes place on Zoom this Thursday, 4th April from 8-9pm. We’ll be in the micro season of hallucinogenic magnolias, which feels WILD with possibility… Light a candle and furnish yourself with a hot drink, something nice to write with and something nice to write on and I’ll see you there…

Zoom link below:

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