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Episode Thirty One: Too much, or not enough?
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Episode Thirty One: Too much, or not enough?

In a therapy session, Lindsay contemplates the legacy of a childhood spent modulating her behaviour to present a palatable version for the adults around her

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4th November 2020

“‘Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal?’ I think, smiling a bit that this has come into my head, now. It’s the title of Jeanette Winterson’s memoir, which I read during the short window between going on maternity leave and my elder daughter’s birth. I’d been sent the book by Dad, who’d chosen it because of its title - he joked - from an online book list I kept.

Uncomfortable and in nesting mode a few weeks before my elder daughter was born

There had been much about me, growing up, that my family had affectionately ribbed me about. My dress-sense; even my studiousness. I never felt ‘normal’, but in some ways I claimed it not as shameful, but as a point of pride. I wanted to stand out; to be noticed. I craved recognition as a way to feel special.

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What Now? with Lindsay Johnstone
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